Monday, 31 December 2018

Au revoir 2018

Dear 2018,

It's time to say goodbye to you. 
You've been eye opening, 
You've been scary, 
You've been frustrating, 
You've been sad, 
You've been emotional, 
You've been ridiculously painful. 
You've taught me so much, 
You've molded me into this new person, 
You've helped me love myself, 
You've helped me grow, 
You've been magical, 
You've been happy, 
You've been filled with tears of joy, 
You've brought me closer to the people I loved, 
You've brought so many beautiful people into my life, 
You've made me open up and break out of my shell completely, 
You've been a delight, 
You've been fan-f**king-tastic! 
In the end, you've been one hell of a roller coaster, that has made me throw up and so nauseous that even though I loved it, I don't wanna ride it again. 
But, fact remains that you've been one awesome year, a year I will be thankful for in so so so many ways and will never ever forget. 
Looking back, I've loved you for what you gave me. 

Dear 2019 - You have one ridiculously awesome year to live upto. 
The sun sets on 2018, and the sun rises in 2019.

Tuesday, 13 November 2018

Happy Children's Day

Crawl. 
Walk. 
Run. 
Jump. 
Fly. 
Whisper. 
Talk. 
Shout. 
Scream. 
Yell. 
Cry. 
Giggle. 
Laugh. 
Sit. 
Stand. 
Play. 
Sing. 
Dance. 
Love. 
Hate. 
Fight. 
Watch. 
Stare. 
Learn. 
Observe. 
Discover. 
Share. 
Enjoy. 
Live. 
Believe. 
Dream. 
Happy Children's Day 


Tuesday, 6 November 2018

Bring it back

That mischievous smile. 
That playful and unobstructed laugh. 
That careless attitude. 
That childish behavior. 
That boyish charm. 
That grin. 
That genuineness.
That confidence. 
That glint in the eye. 
That unpolluted mind. 
That pure heart. 
That clean soul. 
That innocence. 
That childhood. 
Bring it back... 

Monday, 5 November 2018

Rules

Are there rules? 
Is there a right or wrong? 
Is there a particular way to do things? 
Is there a do and a don't? 
Is there a best and worst? 
Is there an up and down? 
Is there a method? 
Is there an ideal path? 
What's fast? 
What's slow? 
What's perfect? 
What's happy? 
What's sad? 
What's too much? 
What's too less? 
What's just right? 
Rules... 

Sunday, 4 November 2018

Repeat

Wake up. 
Open your eyes. 
Stretch your arms. 
Twitch your nose. 
Open your mouth wide. 
Exhale. 
Inhale. 
Twist and turn. 
Close your eyes. 
Reflect on what the day will look like. 
Open your eyes again. 
Look around at the beautiful world. 
The sky, the clouds, the people, the trees, the flowers. 
Listen to the sounds around you. 
The vehicles, the children, the ladies and gentlemen yelling, the birds, the animals, the wind. 
Stretch a little more. 
Shower and shave. 
Feel every moment of the day pass by. 
Make people smile. 
Smile and laugh yourself. 
Cry a little. 
Laugh again. 
Spread joy. 
Love a little. 
Live each day like it's the ONE. 
Sleep. 
Repeat... 

Travels

Travels take us far. 
Travels bring us closer. 
Travels help us discover. 
Travels help us learn. 
Travels teach us about the world. 
Travels teach us about ourselves. 
Travels are about widening our horizons. 
Travels are about diving deep within. 
Travels are about flying high into the sky. 
Travels are about driving on unknown paths. 
Travels are about finding new people. 
Travels are about finding meaning. 
Travels are about taking that first step towards the thousand miles. 
Travel is life. The journey called Life. 
Travels... 

Thursday, 1 November 2018

Let it go

The power of letting go. 
We come. 
We go. 
People come. 
People go. 
Love happens. 
Hate happens. 
Heart gets warm. 
Heart goes cold. 
Heart beats. 
Heart stops. 
Love warms. 
Love cools. 
Love heals. 
Love hurts. 
Hope comes. 
Hope goes. 
Hold on. 
Let it go. 
The power of letting go..

Sunday, 21 October 2018

A failure

What have I been so far? 
What have I done so far? 
What am I doing? 
I've failed. 
I've failed at a career. 
I've failed in education. 
I've failed at success.
I've failed at being a son. 
I've failed at being a brother. 
I've failed at being a friend. 
I've failed at being a boyfriend.  
I've failed at being a confidant. 
I've failed at being a lover. 
I've failed at being a husband. 
I've failed at being a relative. 
I've failed at being a family member. 
I've failed at everything to do with others. 
I've failed in the eyes of the society. 
I've failed at life. 
I've failed at everything. 
I've failed at giving myself a logical reason to go on. 
I've failed. 
A failure.  

Saturday, 6 October 2018

Not anymore

I don't wanna do this anymore, 
I don't wanna work anymore, 
I don't wanna try anymore,
I don't wanna be fresh anymore, 
I don't wanna be tired anymore, 
I don't wanna think anymore, 
I don't wanna feel anymore, 
I don't wanna be sad anymore, 
I don't wanna be happy anymore, 
I don't wanna cry anymore, 
I don't wanna smile anymore, 
I don't wanna laugh anymore, 
I don't wanna talk anymore, 
I don't wanna connect anymore, 
I don't wanna express anymore, 
I don't wanna struggle anymore, 
I don't wanna sleep anymore, 
I don't wanna wake up anymore, 
I don't wanna love anymore, 
I don't wanna hate anymore, 
I don't wanna hope anymore, 
I don't wanna breathe anymore. 
I don't wanna do this anymore... 

Friday, 7 September 2018

What do you do?

What do you do? 
What do you do when you see chaos? 
Do you feel alone? 
Do you see a crowd? 
Do you see your own? 
Do you see loneliness? 
Do you see a group? 
Do you see a person? 
Do you see happiness? 
Do you see sadness? 
Do you see madness? 
Do you see sorrow? 
Do you see sanity? 
What do you see? 
What do you do? 

Tuesday, 4 September 2018

A silent peace

A silent madness, 
A silent sadness, 
A silent place, 
A silent face, 
A silent night, 
A silent sight, 
A silent wish, 
A silent prayer, 
A silent sigh, 
A silent high, 
A silent breath, 
A silent smile, 
A silent tear,
A silent fear, 
A silent dream, 
A silent hope, 
A silent faith, 
A silent love, 
A silent desire, 
A silent fire, 
A silent light, 
A silent breeze, 
A silent peace...

Friday, 31 August 2018

Dream on

Dream on... 

You will achieve some, you'll break some. 
You will hope. 
You will have faith. 
There will come a time when you feel all is lost. 
You will feel like all dreams are lost. 
You will feel crushed. 

But, 
There's always a tomorrow. 
A tomorrow to sing and dance. 
A tomorrow to take a walk in the park. 
A tomorrow to fill your lungs with oxygen. 
A tomorrow to feel that beautiful life that's running through your veins. 
A tomorrow to make new dreams. 

Dream on, dream on, dream on... 

Monday, 27 August 2018

Happiness...

Is it an emotion? 
Is it a feeling? 
Is it an object? 
Is it something you desire? 
Is it something you earn? 
Is it only for a select few? 
Does it exist in only one form? 

Happiness is am emotion. 
It is a feeling. 
It isn't an object. 
It is something we all desire. 
It isn't something you earn. 
It is for everyone. 
Happiness exists in infinite forms. 

Happiness lies in the eyes. You need to see it. 
It is present in the air. You need to hear, smell and feel it. 
It is in the food you eat. You need to taste it. 
Happiness is in your senses. 
Happiness is in your heart. It is in your smile, it flows through your veins, it is in your blood. 

Acknowledge it and it's there for you always. 
Happiness... 

Friday, 18 May 2018

Happy anniversary mom-dad

It's been 34 years, he said.
Really? 34 years? Said she.
But to me it feels like just a few years. 
What are you saying, said he. We've got two grown up kids!
Oh yes, she said, I hadn't realized where the time went. 
It's like a lifetime, said he. Jaan, She said, you are my life. 
What a wonderful journey it's been honey, he said, looking at her with love in his eyes, same as what he had 34 years back, when they decided to take every step together in life.
Through green pastures, through muck, through quicksand, through water, across hills and valleys, into paradise and through hell too. 
But what a wonderful journey its been. 

Happy Anniversary sweetheart! Love you to the moon and back! We are Radhanil! 

Monday, 30 April 2018

Mumbai meri jaan

You trouble me. 
You stress me out. 
You make me run. 
You make me hide. 
You make me struggle. 
You make me succeed. 
You make me sad. 
You make me happy.
You make me go Ahhh Mumbai, 
Cause baby, I'm addicted to you. 
Mumbai meri jaan... 

Thursday, 29 March 2018

I wonder.

As I stand here, I wonder....
I wondered if there would be anything ahead. 
I wondered if I'd find my way. 
I wondered if I'd lead myself to where I want to go. 
I wonder where I am. 
I wonder what I'd do. 
I wonder if there is more. 
I wonder if there are smiles or frowns.
I wonder if I'll find myself. 
I wonder who I am. 
I wonder where I'd go. 
I wonder who would be around me. 
I wonder what I'll see if I just stare into space. 
I wonder if it's calm. 
I wonder if it's bumpy. 
I wonder if there's peace. 
I wonder if there's love. 
I wonder if there's hope. 
As I stand here, I wonder. 
I wonder... 

Thursday, 22 March 2018

Chains or me?

You've seen people tied up?
People tied up in ropes... 
People tied up in handcuffs... 
People tied up in chains... 

What must go through their minds? 
Do they think happy thoughts? 
Do they think of a pretty place? 
Do they think of the people they love? 
Do they think of love, laughter and life? 
Do they think dark thoughts? 
Do they think of horrid places? 
Do they think of sadness and death? 

Can the clothes on our body make us feel tied? 
Can the shoes we were make us feel restrained? 
Can the skin that covers our skeleton make us feel like we're suffocating? 

Are these chains? Or is it just me? 
Chains or me? 

Wednesday, 7 March 2018

Women's Day

Who is a Woman? 
She is beautiful, irrespective of whether she wears make up or not, whether she's bald or has long hair, irrespective of her size and age.
She is one who loves. 
She is one who nurtures and cares. 
She is bold, brave and strong. 
She is dedicated.
She is motivated. 
She is selfless. 
She is the creator of the world and of life. 
She is the one that gave all of us this beautiful life. 
She is one who deserves love, respect, care, and a thousand salutes. 
I salute every woman I've ever known and every woman I've never known. Without you the world would not exist. 
Happy Women's Day! 

Friday, 23 February 2018

Yes Man

Am I Wrong? Yes.
Am I at fault? Yes. 
Am I selfish? Yes. 
Am I inconsiderate? Yes. 
Am I a pervert? Yes. 
Am I a cheat? Yes. 
Am I a liar? Yes. 
Am I mad? Yes. 
Am I an attention seeker? Yes. 
Am I stone hearted? Yes. 
Am I throwing everything away? Yes. 

Am I feeling like everything is ending? Yes. 
Am I feeling like it's all over? Yes. 
Am I losing motivation? Yes. 
Am I lost? Yes. 
Am I hopeless? Yes. 

Am I in love? Yes. 

Yes. Yes. Yes. 
Yes Man! 

Wednesday, 21 February 2018

The Horizon

I feel like I'm cornered from all sides. 
I feel like I have no say left in anything. 
I feel like I don't matter anymore. 
I feel like my opinion is null and void. 
I feel like the soul is sucked out of me. 
I feel like I'm talking but nobody can hear me.
I feel like everything I say is perceived as untrue. 
I feel like I've been a really bad person. 
I feel like I've been the worst and most selfish person. 
I feel like I've taken advantage. 
I feel like everything I've done till date is what has got me here. 
I feel like I have nobody who will understand me. 
I feel like nobody will believe me. 
I feel like a liar. 
I feel like a cheat. 
I feel like I've ruined multiple lives. 
I feel hate for life. 
I feel disgusted by myself. 
I feel like I've been misunderstood. 
I feel like there's no turning back. 
I feel afraid. Oh so afraid. 
I feel all alone. 
I feel like reaching out, but hold myself back. 
I feel like I badly want everything to end. 
I feel like going to sleep, and never waking up. 
I feel like I'm there... At the end! 
The Horizon...