Brother? No Brother...

All these years I felt I've been good...

All this time I thought we had a special bond...

All these years I've felt I've made a contribution to your life...

All this time I've thought I mattered to you, in one way or another...

But in the end, I realize it's all been in my head.

In the end, I realize I've probably made no contribution in your life.

In the end, I don't think I even mattered.

My existence in your life probably didn't matter.

I probably failed as a big brother...

I probably did.

Brother? No Brother...

I am tired

I'm tired of being the guy everyone wants me to be...

I'm turd of being the guy my family wants me to be...

I'm tired of being the guy you want me to be...

I'm tired of being the guy they want me to be...

Have I not got opinions of my own anymore?
Have I not got a say in how I should behave and act anymore?

Do I just have to do what everyone else deems the right way to behave and act only?
Do I just have to do what the world expects me to do?

Am I not allowed to be who I want to be?
AM I not allowed to have fun when I want to?
AM I supposed to only think of what everyone will think always?

I am tired...