The Sweet Innocence of a Child!

Where did the years go by.

When did childhood end.

At an age when I was supposed to be laughing and playing and just enjoying things, I was worrying and doing things I wasn't supposed to do at my age.

I was worrying about what others would think and what I should do and shouldn't do.

Don't know where the sweet innocence went. Don't know how.

There are times when I feel, I might have been a very different person if I'd done things differently as a child.

Everything depends on how you start off.

Made me more responsible. Made me more matured and gave me more understanding of the world.

Seeing a Child laugh and seeing the Sweet Innocence in his eyes, makes me think if I did that as a child.

But I still miss....

The Sweet Innocence of a Child!

The End!

There are times in Life when things seem to be at a standstill.

You feel you're moving forward, but it feels like you're going behind. In reality, you are moving forward, because you learn a lot on the way.

But, there are still those times that you fear. Times when you know your Life is gonna End.
Nothing makes you happy anymore. Even if you get the things you've always wanted, you don't feel happy at all.

The people who you love the most, are the ones that hurt you the most.
The people you believe will never let you go, are the ones that do eventually.....

Everytime I try to close a chapter and move ahead trying to start a new chapter, it all seems to go back to the old chapters. Past is always brought up. No matter what.

The pain inside never finds a way out. The pain inside is excruciating because there's no way to express it. I don't know a way out. I'm not the smartest. I can't do things by myself. I am an introvert. Will always continue to be one. But I also always need someone who will hold me up. I may not be demanding in the basic & materialistic needs of life, but am I not allowed to be demanding emotionally?

I am deeply hurt and the wounds just won't fill till I'm with you.

And now even you show signs of leaving me.
Living in a Fear is not good. I tried hard to let go of that Fear assuring myself nothing like that is ever gonna happen. But, I see it coming back.

Story of my Life. New things don't seem to last very long. Expressing is always a problem. I can't voice my feelings very well. Why do I have to try so hard to show how I feel? Why can't it just be understood? I am sensitive. Very very sensitive. Even though I try to portray otherwise. I have a mask on always. When the mask comes off, I see deep sadness and hurt. Wounds that just never seem to heal. Scars that nobody is willing to forget. Everything comes to an End always. Always....

The End!

Go to Hell...!!!

I've confided.

I've trusted.

I've been betrayed.

I've been abused.

I've been judged.

I've been ignored.

I've tried.

I've fought.

I've struggled.

I've suffered.

I've been hurt.

I've given up.

I've tried to move on.

I've moved on.

I've stopped caring.

But, I still don't know why I'm hurting. All it means is.....

Go To Hell...!!!

Marriage Changes Your Life...

When your Best Friend gets Married, he lives Happily Ever After.

But when He gets Married, you also give your best friend away to someone else.

Marriage Changes Your Life...

But, when You get Married, you find a Best Friend in your Spouse.

Which means that this Best Friend is never going to go away to someone else.

You have a Best Friend by your side Forever.

Marriage Changes Your Life...

Losers...!!!

Dedicated to all those people that lost me!

This is a reflection of myself from myself....

I want to write and pass my feelings on to all the people that have cheated me, played with my feelings, felt I was too 'low' for them, thought I was not good, thought I was embarrassing, felt they deserved better than me and to all the Bastards who thought they were the best!

You guys don't know what you've lost out on, when you lost me as a friend.

You guys don't know what you'd miss, when you knew there was no friend who'd ever care for you so much.

You don't know what you are missing out on in Life. Because once you ditch true friendship, you'll never get in back.

You didn't realise that life turned its back against you, when you turned your back against me.

You may be happier in terms of wealth, physique, style, etc. But the mental happiness is all that matters. Nothing material will ever give that to you.

To all You Bastards
- May Life teach you the same Lessons you have taught Me.
- May Life treat you with the same amount of Respect with which You treated Me.
- May Life be the Best possible for You because I know its gonna be Hell once You Die!
- May Your Souls never Rest in Peace

Losers...!!!