The End!

There are times in Life when things seem to be at a standstill.

You feel you're moving forward, but it feels like you're going behind. In reality, you are moving forward, because you learn a lot on the way.

But, there are still those times that you fear. Times when you know your Life is gonna End.
Nothing makes you happy anymore. Even if you get the things you've always wanted, you don't feel happy at all.

The people who you love the most, are the ones that hurt you the most.
The people you believe will never let you go, are the ones that do eventually.....

Everytime I try to close a chapter and move ahead trying to start a new chapter, it all seems to go back to the old chapters. Past is always brought up. No matter what.

The pain inside never finds a way out. The pain inside is excruciating because there's no way to express it. I don't know a way out. I'm not the smartest. I can't do things by myself. I am an introvert. Will always continue to be one. But I also always need someone who will hold me up. I may not be demanding in the basic & materialistic needs of life, but am I not allowed to be demanding emotionally?

I am deeply hurt and the wounds just won't fill till I'm with you.

And now even you show signs of leaving me.
Living in a Fear is not good. I tried hard to let go of that Fear assuring myself nothing like that is ever gonna happen. But, I see it coming back.

Story of my Life. New things don't seem to last very long. Expressing is always a problem. I can't voice my feelings very well. Why do I have to try so hard to show how I feel? Why can't it just be understood? I am sensitive. Very very sensitive. Even though I try to portray otherwise. I have a mask on always. When the mask comes off, I see deep sadness and hurt. Wounds that just never seem to heal. Scars that nobody is willing to forget. Everything comes to an End always. Always....

The End!